Lamanya tak panggil awak Munchkin, mungkin sebab we're both been busy handling our new edition in the family. Or maybe we've been less romantic these days. All praised to Creator for a bless journey of life. Kan sayang?
Jangan ingat kita gedik kay because I've always wanted to reserve an entry just for you. Like I told you, pentegar diary ni bini awak ni. Tapi diary is always a sensitive matter for me. So kita tulis sini je la eh. Dah baca baru boleh ejek kita (konon romantik, konon memanja, gegedik and mengada). Takpe. Biasa dah. Ihiks
Rasanya ni dah kali ke 170thrillion version Fynn Jamal dah tua petik gitar guna gigi emas shuk ulang detik awal perkenalan dekat awak. Annoying ye dak? hahaha. Don't be.. sebab kenapa shuk suka refresh those moments when the first time I met you is because from those moments I knew there's a person exist/meant from Allah to me. Yeah I do. And I love how the way you make me feel. Love. And helped whenever I mad at you. So kalau shuk marah ngorat balik cerita bebenda lama cemgini. Confirm anak kita nanti satu pasukan rugby. LELAKI JE. Perempuan lain :p
I love when you took me to movies,
I love when you always spoiled me,
I love when you always put your best to be patient with me.
I love when you took me to Tasik Titiwangsa,
I love when you took me ride to everywhere,
I love when we stay all night sit and talking,
I love when you introduced me to new foods,
I love when you spit it all out about your life story,
I love when you do something romantic and memorable.
I love when you helped me with everything,
I love when you hide your jealousy,
I always love you smile,
and what I love most,
You make me feel secure, safe and protected.
EVERYTIME, bila shuk recall semua moments tu, I laugh and smile myself. Most precioust moments. Dedua baru lepas frust menonggeng with the same (well almost, nearly sama nasib). Ex-es end up with somebody else. But thru those process we've met kan? Kan la kot :p I don't know. I wasn't perfect and you knew, I wasn't pretty but you still chose me of every perfect girls in this world. Why me? hahaha. Should be ask you long before. But still why eh? sila isi jawapan di bawah
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Thru ups and down, without any bond, we still attached. By feelings. You was far from my side when I started to fall for you. And I know, from the moment you flew to Australia, I fell for this guy and I need him to come home as poronto!
Ups and down thru a year, and I never expected to be your Mrs. and I never hope to be one cause we'll never know every inch of His qada' and qadar. Thou I love you so much, I never dare to agaisnt His will. Lahawlawala Quwataillah Billah. Shuk tetap berserah seluruh padaNya and hoping for every best for both of us. Ada, adalah. Ada jodoh tak kemana.
Alhamdulillah we are now proceeding to almost a year of marriage life. together with our baby girl Raysha Ammara.
Munchkin, I am and forever will never be a perfect person. Thou said ''Tiada istilah menyusahkan kalau dah namanya isteri" but trust me... i feel that all the time. I do .... I were never at my best for you. All my craps behaviour make me cry to my deep sadness of how I'm repay you. Marah marah jugak, tapi sedih shuk tetap sedih sebab berlaku jahat. Lepas tu suka salahkan hormones kan? hahaha.
p/s : dah pegi check doctor kata "Low Possibility". You just bloated. Tapi kan sayang, kalau ada apa salahnya?
"Dan (ingatlah) ketika Tuhanmu berfirman kepada Malaikat; “Sesungguhnya Aku hendak menjadikan seorang khalifah di bumi”. Mereka bertanya (tentang hikmat ketetapan Tuhan itu dengan berkata): “Adakah Engkau (Ya Tuhan kami) hendak menjadikan di bumi itu orang yang akan membuat bencana dan menumpahkan darah (berbunuh-bunuhan), padahal kami sentiasa bertasbih dengan memujiMu dan mensucikanMu?”. Tuhan berfirman: “Sesungguhnya Aku mengetahui akan apa yang kamu tidak mengetahuinya”. - surah Al-Baqarah, ayat 30.
Maybe from the changes. I wasn't who I was but I am still and always the one the person you knew. Have you ever wonder why shuk save semua benda yang remeh even the tinest thing? Because you are the most memorable person for me, in me and forever me. Tak bukan sengaja tabur ayat romantik. Ni betul. You're my buddy, my argue partner, my ears, my apa lagi awak nak?
The moment you read this entry, I've printed for you untuk baca dalam flight on your way to umrah. Hehehe the same old perangai always left or give you 'note' before awak fly kemana saja that took us days away from each other. So that you won't forget that there's a person, a women who sincerely always wait for you back at home. Now you get it why I dedicated to you 'Back at home' song? Even before khawin awak ke Johor pun I secretly waited for you. Ah mengadanya shukriah!
May you have a save journey to Umrah sayang, I guess we'll not be connected to each other for almost 2 weeks kan? Takpe. Take your every second to be at your Creator's home. Bertuah awak and shuk lah orang paling bahagia bila awak dapat kesana. Mudahan sangat segala doa awak panjatkan kepadaNya di dengar dan di makbulkan. Mohonlah segala apa pun sayang kerana Dia sebaik-baik Tuhan. Jangan abaikan walau sikit pun masa awak dekat sana. Manfaatkan! Awak taktau kapan lagi awak kesana. Doalah yang terbaik buat diri awak. Mana yang terbaik untuk awak, mungkin terbaik juga buat semua orang. May you lead me and our kids to His way, inshaAllah...
I'll be missing you Arief. Raysha will be too :) Come home in one piece for us ok? Mohon ampunkan segala dosa shuk :'(( ... dari awal hingga sekarang.. shuk banyak berlaku jahat pada awak dengan sedar atau tidak. Halalkan makan, minum, pakai, perlindungan awak pada shuk... Maafkan shuk yang melukakan perasaan awak, meyinggung hati awak, menjana air mata awak, masak tak sedap, suke membebel, suka merungut, suka merajuk, merosakkan barang awak, tidak bahagiakan awak, terkasar didik anak, tak cukup solat, tak menutup aurat dengan sempurna...... ampunkan.
dah la sayang taknak cakap dah. sedih teruk ... :'((
Shuk sayang awak dunia akhirat. Semoga awak bidadara syurga shuk kelak. Meskipun jauh dari kelayakan untuk syurgaNya. Love you Munchkin .
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